Smile of the day.

WARNING: Venting ahead!

Today Av is four months old. I am so thankful for her sweet spirit and the joy she has brought into Beav and I's life. I can't remember what it was like before (well, thats not all true, 3 in the morning I can!) I would do pregnancy all over again and hopefully will be again sometime-- much later in time! BUT--I hate what it has done to my body. Disclaimer: I never have or will ever claim to have a good body.
I have a lot of pregnancy after thoughts that the have left their mark...I have been back down to my pre preg weight for a while now, so tell me this.....WHY CAN I NOT FIT INTO MY PRE PREG CLOTHES!!! The shape of my body is distorted now. I can no longer suck in my gunt for the life of me, I now have these two beautiful deflated slightly droopy breasteses! NICE, I tell ya.. I am sure Ugly Betty is looking good to my husband. I have stretch marks that cover my belly and my once beautiful thick shinny hair is now falling out one by one...You would think we had a dog with the amount of long black hairs every where...but no they are ALL mine and I want them ALL back on my head! My once clear complexion is now a bumpy road map. The joys of pregnancy. I understand now why Kirstie Alley wore support hose underneath her bikini on Oprah...nothing is ever the same after pregnancy! I truly am jealous of all those ladies that after many kids have the body of a teenager! I know there are those that work really hard to get back to that,...its those that didn't have to work at all that I direct all my frustrations to! My sister in law is that way, skinnier now after her three kids! UGHH! I see all these women walking around wearing pants that appear to fit them..SO why I ask can I not find pants to fit me. They have to buy pants somewhere, is there a secret store that I don't know about. Elastic has become my best friend. I didn't have to wear maternity pants until I was almost 6 and 1/2 months pregannt. I loved those maternity jeans, so much room and oh so comfortable! I teased that they would become my Thanksgiving and Christmas pants. Listen MISTER...I was teasing..I didn't think I would HAVE to wear them to Thanksgiving and Christmas because nothing else fits and I am surely not going to have a muffin top...That is just Wrong I tell ya! I will not let others loose their appetites. I guess I will be wearing my yoga pants to Thanksgiving! Do you think heels go?