Miracles

Today marks the month anniversary of the passing of our sweet niece, Eli. Brian and I were talking last night that it seems more like an eternity ago that it happened but the feelings we keep experiencing feel like it happened yesterday.

I have those quiet moments during the day when I choke up thinking about all that has happened. My heart aches for Kelli and Chauncy. I know the Lord is aware of Kelli and Chauncy and their needs and He is taking care of them. It is hard not to have my thoughts with them constantly throughout the day. I still can't take their Christmas card off my fridge, but I can't not look at it without crying.

I know miracles happened on that Christmas Eve. I know that Kelli being alive is a miracle in itself. I know that there is another child who is alive today because they have my nieces heart and other people that benefited from my brother in law's unselfishness, in seeing that in the midst of all his pain in grief other people could be saved.

I read a blog the other day that a woman ,who was very familiar with death due to losing both her parents to cancer and now being a grief counselor, said something that touched me and gave me great comfort. She said that "we are not our bodies" in terms of death and afterlife. At Eli's viewing it was hard not to cry and be upset that she was gone and that she was lying in a casket. Yes, I was angry that it was happening. It wasn't/isn't fair. I was wondering why/how Chauncy looked so peaceful and had the ability of comforting others. I think after reading that blog that I understand that he must of gotten the message before me, that we are not our bodies. That it wasn't Eli lying there, it was just her body. That Eli is not her body. Yes, still sad. But, great comfort knowing her spirit was in the arms of a loving Heavenly Father and that she was better than ok. I have to keep telling myself that, that she is better than ok. She touched many lives in her short 5 years. I believe in a loving Heavenly Father and that Kelli and Chauncy and all of the other people grieving her loss and Kelli's injuries, will be stronger and better people because of having experienced that love from Eli.

Kelli is doing wonderful. We are seeing miracles everyday in her healing. I didn't doubt how hard she would work to get back to be with her family. I have always admired her fighting spirit and her strength...physically, spiritually and mentally. She is showing us what she is really made of and I am so proud of her.